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I haven't think about the title of this story I write yet... Also I write this story because it's from my situation I've been through and still feeling up and down right now... Hoped I'm feeling better now and I wished I can catch a Primarina in Pokemon GO as my dude promised... ㅜwㅜ
I went out to the sea before the sunrise comes... The skies and sea look so dull and dark that I can't see the view properly... I take a deep breath to vent out from what happened to me yesterday...
Yesterday, it was the sudden day of mine's... The day I felt lonely...The day I felt left behind...
The day I cried...
The day I almost give up my life...
The day that everyone stopped me... It was a huge risk I take and everyone got shocked and break a shard of mine's in their eyes... I really don't know what to do and how to solve this rough feeling... Sometimes, I can't take this easily... I've been always dreaming like this I was in a dark world... Maybe, it's only my fault why I do this... I don't want to blame anyone because it's obvious I did nothing wrong to them but, they don't like me back on who I really am... The tears I shed is the tears of my sorrows... I'm glad everyone comforted me and telling me that I'm all fine... But that's not the thing and there's something missing yet... It's a person whom I liked... He looks nice and precious as always appeared in my dreams but, he has bitter feelings to me... I understand why... The first time I met him is so kind and gentle and slowly by slowly have feelings for him... But I don't want to tell it... Little by little, we've been acting strange to each other's... And sometimes, I can't stop control this feeling for him and I don't want to go through obsession... Obsession is the hard feeling when it comes to the real people but for me, my heart always tells me that I like him and should do it... So I turned away and cried in darkness... I wished I wanted to disappear...
I wished I wanted to be alone...
I wished I wanted to be perfect...
I wished I wanted to run away...
I wished there's a light of happiness again... I know I'm not really perfect for him... It's a hard fact to accept it... It's really hard to say other than "I like you" or "I love you"... I slowly walked on the edge of the dock as I'm going to do the same thing again... As my one foot about to fall on the sea... Until... A sun is slowly rising up and a glimpse of light shines in front of me... My eyes were widened open and stepped back... Maybe this is the hope to move on and start a new day... Oh, it's also the light of happiness... It tells me that I'll promise to be happier by my own again... I closed my eyes and listen to my heart... I never forget that I'm always being loved and being special in this world...